Arthur pauses, and his face goes slack for a moment, like he just got slapped.
And then the outrage comes back twice as hard, so intense that his cheeks immediately colour from it and his voice is an instant snarl as he approaches Bucky's voice.
"Fuck you! I am through with fucking waiting! I have tried being patient, I have tried being polite, and none of you people ever fucking do anything!"
He gesticulates violently as he talks, seemingly unaware of the white-knuckle grip he has on the knife. "Do you have any fucking comprehension of how goddamn small my world is when I am fucking blind?! Do you even understand how- h-how fucking isolating this is?! To have to- I have to beg people just to know what the fuck they're talking about in any situation because they don't care that I cannot see it!! I don't know what a single goddamn item in my house looks like, I don't know what any of you bastards look like, I-I don't even know what colour my fucking clothes are! The amount of trust I am forced to give you people, time and time again when nothing you have ever done grants me the same! You all treat me like a fucking invalid when I am one of the only ones of us who is even remotely familiar with this point time, who knows how to act in fucking public-- I am blind, I am not fucking helpless!!"
CW ableism (blindness)
And then the outrage comes back twice as hard, so intense that his cheeks immediately colour from it and his voice is an instant snarl as he approaches Bucky's voice.
"Fuck you! I am through with fucking waiting! I have tried being patient, I have tried being polite, and none of you people ever fucking do anything!"
He gesticulates violently as he talks, seemingly unaware of the white-knuckle grip he has on the knife. "Do you have any fucking comprehension of how goddamn small my world is when I am fucking blind?! Do you even understand how- h-how fucking isolating this is?! To have to- I have to beg people just to know what the fuck they're talking about in any situation because they don't care that I cannot see it!! I don't know what a single goddamn item in my house looks like, I don't know what any of you bastards look like, I-I don't even know what colour my fucking clothes are! The amount of trust I am forced to give you people, time and time again when nothing you have ever done grants me the same! You all treat me like a fucking invalid when I am one of the only ones of us who is even remotely familiar with this point time, who knows how to act in fucking public-- I am blind, I am not fucking helpless!!"